“Sometimes, I’m scared that God doesn’t love me because I’m a woman.”
As soon as I say it, I want to cry. Maybe because I really do feel it sometimes. Maybe because I know it’s a lie. But I still struggle with doubts that the sum and the total of all God’s promises are for me directly–for me, a woman.
She voices the same fear to me one day. It’s almost harder to know I’m not alone.
Suddenly, I’m waking up at 6 AM every morning, devouring the pages of the Bible like I haven’t seen food in years. “Please Lord, show me your love for women.”
What I find is that the sum and total of all God’s promises are not only for women, but often delivered through women.
Like Rahab whose faith grips me, the way she waited hopefully for an enemy nation to rescue her from her own people, they way her faith delivered her family from death. And how God brings the Messiah through her line.
Or Esther, a woman who dared to challenge the powerful, evil men of her time, who God used to save her people from genocide so His promises to Israel could be fulfilled.
And Abigail, a powerful, smart woman who stood before King David and negotiated for her husband’s life.
To say nothing of Sarah, the birth mother of a nation; Deborah, the prophetess of Israel; Abigail, Hannah, Elizabeth, Mary, Anna and Lydia.
Even the R-rated passages that show the mistreatment of women, the one in Judges that makes me nauseous. Doesn’t it show that the mistreatment and oppression of women is a sign of the darkest times in a nation’s history?
And then there’s Jesus. Our example. A man who treated women as equals. A man who defied cultural expectations, who talked theology with the Samaritan woman at the well and broke the taboos. A man who befriended women. Who revealed his risen self to women first.
In a world that has crushed women, the cross has made them whole.
Has freed them from sin, has empowered them to defy shame. Women are called to come boldly before the throne of God.
To live whole, fulfilled lives, despite our relationship status or our job title.
All because God loves women and gave Himself up for them.